My Weblog

And a new resolve - I'm *not* going to read the digests in the morning if I
sleep in. Oh well, another late arrival at work!
<<I think we may be seeing the emergence of another alternate
brain-wiring syndrome. I call it ERCD...Email Response Compulsion
Disorder..... What did we ever do in our former lives in the BC years?
(That's Before Computers.)
I think that ERCD is an evolved/mutated form of TIC/NP that is thought to be
a childhood 'disorder' - (Talking In Class/Note Passing sub-type). It
sometimes manifests as TIC/KOOC (Talking In Church/Kicked Out Of Chapel). I
know -- I am definitely ERCD and TIC/Combined! LOL -- and no, you *don't*
outgrow it.
(*sports commentator voice*: Larry throws the ball, Greta makes the catch
and runs with it!!!! :o)
<<But then maybe I could get the Christmas lights off the house.
Just re-name the blinkin' little things -- Easter lights, Memorial Day
lights, 4th of July lights (USA only), etc. I personally hate the fact that
we don't decorate for every holiday with little shiny lights. :)
"Hi Ho, Hi Ho, It's off to work I go! (*whistle, etc.*) Hi Ho! Hi HO!"
Greta

don't get 200 at once anymore but lately it's only
sometimes we have to catch our breath....or rest our hands. It fluctuates.
It will be slow and then all of a sudden it will start jumping.....who can
tell. It depends, I guess, on a subject being brought up that sparks
interest.....or just enough folks bored enough to start ramboling on about
whatever. Give it time.
This is a good time to encourage lurkers to jump in....any takers????
Lexxy

Larry, that was a hilarious post! You keep me laughing all the time, I love
it.
Andrea

Jason
Definitely! Dr Amen is one of the authors who is very clear about this, and
why I advocate making sure which type of ADD - or more precisely - which
parts of your brain are under active and which parts over active - because
the right meds for you will be determined by this.
On the current meds you are being more distractible - so you need a
different sort of medication. Plus, you have a heightened sensitivity to
pain on that medication.
Check out you ADD Type and then you can find out which meds etc work for
that type.
Several people have responded about their years of frustration trying to
sort out their meds. For some it is relatively easy. Whenever someone is
having difficulty with their meds it is useful to go back to basics. You
need to know just what your symptoms are and which medication will help.
The most useful chart I know of is at
http://add.about.com/library/bldramentreatment.htm
It's taken from Dr Amen's book "Healing ADD" p 274 Biological Treatment
Summary. One benefit of knowing your Type of ADD - and hence which parts of
your brain are underactive or overactive is that you can then cut out a lot
of hit and miss with meds.
You know that Adderal is not helping with your ability to focus on what you
are supposed to be attending to - and so that's something you will be
wnating to check out with whatever you try next. One thing that can be
useful is to not just take the Amen test (or any other) but to make up a
chart and rate yourself on each symptom on a scale of 1 to 10. The after a
week on meds check and see if there are areas of improvement - or worsening.
Take your chart to you appointments so the doctor can see how the medication
is working - or not.
Bea Pullar

I think we may be seeing the emergence of another alternate
brain-wiring syndrome. I call it ERCD...Email Response
Compulsion Disorder. It is manifested by the sudden
irresistable impulse to read that message that just came in and
to compose and post a response. Like this one.
Other characteristics are severe depression during power outages,
a sallow complexion brought on by staring at computer monitors
during most hours in the day, and the reputation of being
unsociable to "live" people, whatever they are.
One day we'll probably all be gobbled up as a stream of electrons
into our mouse ports. Online? Heck, we'll _be_ the line.
What did we ever do in our former lives in the BC years? (That's
Before Computers.) If I had to give this up now, my existence
would be bleak indeed. But then maybe I could get the Christmas
lights off the house.
Nah... Wouldn't want to go THAT far!

Andrea, I am so glad you are
back!!
We all have a short fuse once
in a while, So no apologies
nessesary!
Jenn

It's gonna hafta take someone more cyber than me....have you contacted help
at onelist??
Lexxy

Whatdaya mean "allowed"!!! ha!
After writing you just now I got to thinking about what you did....and
....***you don't owe us an apology or even an explanation***. What you
did...you did for you because it felt right when you did it. Sure, we all
as ADHDers have a tendency to jump the gun sometimes....but at least we are
"jumping something".
Sometimes we find ourselves in a situation that is having some intense
effect on us and we just have to take some action...and not to affect
someone else but to do something that feels like we are being true to
ourselves.
Other folks who don't have expressive dispositions like I do...[and I think
Andrea does too]....don't realize that certain expressions are not meant for
anyone else but only to get the feelings out for our own identity.
I remember when I was playing on a tennis team...it was so emotionally
involving for me I would get so hyped up and excited I would almost come
unglued. Sometimes others would think I was acting out towards them or the
oposition but it was just to get the pent up feelings out. [I loved John
McEnroe and Andre] After my own team got used to me they were accepting. I
know most folks aren't this way but I think a high percent of ADHDers
are...impulsive and expressive. Somehow it seems honest and when handled
with consideration[not downright nasty], healthy.
What Jane said in her recent post about learning more about herself was
related. She acts out in words....I'm more of an action person[I love to
slam doors]....we all have to give each other some leeway to be the way we
are and to even change and sometimes to be ....well...not wrong ....but
rather a way other than what we would choose if we were not so intense.
[Had John stayed I think this was something that could have been worked
thru.]
Some of my closest friendships started out as a relationship with animosity
that we worked thru...and I'm thinking of some 30 years long friends.
Sometimes there is something about someone that drives you nuts but if you
work thru it ....it can form a bond. Sometimes the motivation just isn't
there and you can't make it happen.
But just think about it....if you are one of us...[who are excitable and
reactive]....doesn't it feel good to get those feelings that you honestly
feel out...it feels true. I have tried to moderate my own behavior for so
long...since birth...and I just end up feeling like I'm playing some
role....the real me gets lost somewhere. I try to be more honestly myself
now and ...."genuine" is an important word to me. I don't want to be
aggressive towards others...but I want them to allow me the right to express
something I really feel...in general...not "to" anyone.
WHEW....didn't mean to get that carried away...but all this has brought up
some feelings in me about myself and my rights and about the list and about
other people all around me.
I know there will ALWAYS be a whole bunch of folks who will not be able to
understand folks like me....it's just not in their way of understanding. I
can live with that as long as I am honest with myself. I have to wake up
with myself every day for the rest of my life. Does this make sense...It
sure feels good. I better re-read it to see.
Thanks ...folks Lexxy

I am becoming frustrated with the list - it seems that my posts are not going
through.
How is that determined? I sent a long one yesterday about a relationship
problem I am having and it was not posted. That is frustrating. Sny solution?

Hello everyone,
After speaking with Lexxy (see..head hung low in shame) I signed back on.
First of all, I apologize for setting such a bad example of impulsive
behavior. I felt the need to step back and take a deep breath I guess.
Generally speaking, I am a little more level headed. I'm not stressed to my
maximum yet, but lately I have had a heavier load than I am used to carrying.
My fuse is a little shorter, and my patience leaves much to be desired.
Lexxy was very gracious and allowed me back:)
Sorry everyone:( I will try to keep a lid on it from now on!
Andrea